This is a movie I have watched for the last 4 years of my life. Once a year for each of my years of sobriety. It helps me to remember, where I was, what I was like, where I was headed, and what I went through. All of this has helped to keep it fresh in my mind what it was like. I am not sure if it has helped me to stay clean, but I do know it has not hurt. I feel remembering where we were and what we were like helps us in reaching out to others because we know the feelings they are going through. Helping others, helps ourselves too. I watched this movie in one of my treatments and it did not hit me at all then. But now, it really shows me what I was like and how I affected others. Being a recovering alcoholic/junkie it puts all those times back into my head of what it was like going through all of this. The feelings of like bugs crawling under my skin and then looking down and seeing my skin move where the bugs were moving. That was BAD. That happened when going cold turkey off of heroin. All of this misuse of drugs and alcohol has taken part of my life away. But it has also given me a new and different life. I am able to see things differently and know how to reach out to others when they need the help. I like to say I never went to college but I did go to the college of hard knocks. Had to learn things the hard way. If know one has seen this movie, I would suggest seeing it. It does open your eyes and see yourself as we were or how we still may be. It is tough seeing ourselves the way we were but helps us into understanding ourselves more and see what our addiction has done to us. There is hope for all of us, I believe that. Tough times don’t last, tough people do. And we have to be the tough people fighting this day in and day out.
I told myself when I first got clean this time I was going to watch this movie at least once a year to just remind myself about what I was. As of now, this is my 4th time watching it. It still hits home just like it did when I first saw it. Anything I can find that will help me to stay clean and sober is worth trying for me. If I go back, I know I die. Running away from life is not an option for me. Facing it is hard but makes me feel stronger each time I do it.

Allan

Yesterday is gone, in the past. Tomorrow is not here, in the future. All we have is today, the present. And that present is a gift to us all.