Hi William:
Yeah...i know the feeling, believe me, i have been there before, and according to some doctors, its called co-dependence, so basically, what it is, when you were growing up, were you loved as a child? were you abandoned, ignored, belittled, humiliated, made fun of, abused, neglected, left alone, punished, yelled at, critized, and all other fun things that we all went tru.. if this sounds familiar, then, welcome to the club, i am still, trying to break free from all this sickening, viscious cycles, and trust me, i know the pain and agony, my friend, unfortunately, you are not alone, we all are fighting our own demons..so good luck...bye