Thank you Briester and I understand why you say what you do, however I will never forgive my abuser. Maybe I will in time and after more therapy who knows, but I feel I can move on and not let him ruin my life any more which is a huge thing for me Even if I never forgive him I know I am a better person than he is and that what happened was never any fault of my own. I have nothing but contempt for predators and I think the way I feel right now that is healthy and justified to be honest. Any person who can harm an innocent child in such an horrific way deserves no respect or forgiveness and I don't think it would make me a 'better person' in any way if I did forgive him. People just have differing opinions on this I think. I'm me and I'm good and bad. I'm not perfect nor am I a terrible person ... I just chose not to forgive the person who did me a huge wrong. Thank you for your thoughts, have a good day too -