When you acept someone as friend then you cannot ignore his/her nonsense anyway ;-)

No you are not numb. I have neither seen you, nor your art work at the blogger, I needed the invitation. But with whatever interaction I have with you to date, it seems that you have everything in you. Your concern for yourself, your urge to break free, your desire for improvisation, so on and so forth. Had you really been numb, senseless or powerless, you would not have ben writing or talking too much. the words you say and things you discuss, these do not seem to come from a weak or numb person. As you speak and express, you inject more and more energy, not only into your own self but into the people who have the chance to read and hear you.
All you need is some fruit, I guess to start up with. May be an apple would do.

And love is the soul of the universe.

Regards
ZILCH HOUR