_Sky,

You always provide us with such valuable, educational information to help us with our issues. I always learn something new with each of your posts that I can apply to experiences that I am having.

I had been able to control my anger for the past 51 years of my life...until this year when I could no longer control it. The smallest things would make me blow up I never in my life was I angry enough to tell off a Doctor & blow up at one. Things my husband would do made me angry, but it seemed to pass. I guess the trauma allowed that anger monster inside me to come out full force.

The psychologist they provided me with while I was in the medical hospital at the beginning of this year pointed out the anger I was experiencing. None of us ever tied it to the trauma I had just been through....maybe because is was so soon after that no one, not even I realized the relationship. After I was discharged, my anger was really bad. At times, I feel like a volcano that builds up & explodes, throwing everything around me across the room, breaking things as I go. I guess one good thing is that my anger toward my husband has finally made me realize that there is no way I want to continue feeling this way inside. The real feelings are finally coming out in the relationship & I am no longer able to hide my feelings.

I think the worse part is that the anger toward my Mother, because I feel that she created the situation that allowed the trauma to come into our lives, has not allowed me to get past the trauma and even feel any grief about her death.

I have so much anger to sort through...and your information will help me put my feelings into perspective over time.

I so appreciate your posts....thank you again for all your valuable information that you share with us.
Debbie