((((((((((((((((((larakeziah))))))))))))) Please do take good care of yourself. I think if you are really stuggling which it sounds like you are, I would call the pdoc back and let them know just how you are feeling. Do you have a T also. If you do, maybe they could help you? other than that, I agree with Berries on being with friends, going shopping, distracting yourself. Could you also maybe have someone stay with you a few days. This way they can help when you feel that urge of wanting to hurt yourself.

Not sure if any of this helps, but please try to be good to yourself. I know that is hard when you are feeling that way, but remember we do care here, and even it helps by posting here, post has much as what you need to. Take care.