I sat down an read everyone's post, it made me feel good that I was not over reacting. When he came home, I told him, you cant have it both ways. You want me to get better and not act like i did in the past but at the sametime your making it worse. I do not care anymore if he does not want to try anything to learn about bipolar. I provided all the resouces, per advise that i recieved here and from my t. and he has not followed thru with any of them. so as far as i am concerned since he is not will to support me, he can deal with consquences of my hypomania that can last up to 3 months and its not pretty.
__________________
Sometimes I am high and sometimes I am low.
Everyone around me but I am always alone.
Hour by hour and week by week,
I deal with myself and I never feel complete.
I want to be normal; I want to be sane,
No matter what I do, I always feel the pain.
“Stop the mania and fight back,
It’s all in your head”
I wish I could do it; I would rather go to bed.
Sometimes I am high and sometimes I am low,
I wish they could see me, so I won’t be alone.
By Pam
|