Thank you for suggestion first to tell my parents. If only you knew, I wish they could understand me. But I find it hard for me to talk to them about this subject. They know I am like this. But would they ever think I would ever do this? Is another thing. The thing I'm scared of is what if it all fails! If I told my mum. First she'll never trust me again, get mad at me. Also keep asking me WHY? I dunno. No more whys stop! If I told my dad he would say that it is stupid and your just under a lot of presure. But then how come no one understands that I'm not safe from myself! huh... guess it's too late soon I mean.