I'm sorry you are feeling so distressed. For more education that is outside your local school district you might want to check out a local community college if you have one in your area. Often they have tests you can take that will place you in the right class. It will let you know what level you are at and how far you have to go to be able to get your GED. There will be a lot of different levels of people in those classes. You will have a structured environment and can get advise on what are the best classes to take. You may even be able to get the local school district to pay for the classes through a program that lets high school students take classes there. (I don't know if your school district does, but mine did.) Good luck.