I'm not making much progress am I? Even as I was typing out my story, I get sick to my stomach and want to throw up when I got to the affair part. It's a really really horrible feeling, it just sticks.
I really want to be with my boyfriend. I really want to commit to our relationship and work as hard as ever. Everything I do now, I just do with him. When I'm away from him, I constantly call to check in with him so he knows where I am, and I'm usually just with my best friends/roommates. Whenever they have night girls out at club, I always stay home. He doesn't want his parents to know about me yet, so whenever we go back to our hometown (we go to the same school and we're from the same hometown), he can't go out or talk on the phone with me, so I stayed plugged to the computer to text him so he knows I'm at home plugged in. I just..really need to work on myself. I'm such a mess.