(((((Cathy))))

Thank you for sharing with us Cathy. You've been through so much and yet are still here which shows how strong a spirit you really have. Just don't forget that fact. I know you're taking the step to see the doctor which is very courageous. In the meantime, there actually is a pretty good book you could read if they had it in the library or I know they sell it on Amazon called "Feeling Good The New Mood Therapy" by Dr. David Burns. It's basically CBT in a book form and there are exercises you can do which will help redirect your thinking. I've been through it once and slowly going through it again. I just stopped practicing the exercises after I got overwhelmed.

I hope you have a wonderful day and know that people here have experienced similar things and we're all here to support one another.