oh my! hon I think you are reading her all wrong. first she isn't short lol. she is pretty average or just above. thought I would let you know on that one lol I am only 5ft tall lol. anyway back to the point I want to make here. she has you on a huge pedestal. She lacks confidence in herself. (hence her comments on even her not being good enough). to me it sounds like you both are in love with each other but maybe afraid to address it. maybe fear it would screw up the friendship. maybe ask her out on a real date. being drunk let's down all inhabitions and with her kissing you like that shows how much she really cares. if you too are as interested in her as you seem to be I say take it to the next step. test the waters. let her know you do think she is good enough. good luck.