wow.... this is exactly what I was looking for and I need to do something about this sadness I have. I kept if for months... then I started to understand things. I never thought I was such in deinal...I thought I was always honest with myself or to the others. I try so hard to keep all my sadness inside me and pretend like it will go away eventually.... Then I admitted about my sadness. I've been crying for 4 days now.
I was so scared about crying and it was painful but I am feeling so much better

Thank you so much for your post.
I'll remember them...