Thanks guys

I know my post sounded a little heavy; but feeling the "s" word -=- I kinda just "puked all over the keyboard" w/o thinking. I was just crying for help the only way I knew how. I'm not a mean, unsupportive, abrasive person. I would have never volunteered on crisis lines and/or work as a psych nurse...I have "street sense (knowledge"), so I know I don't exactly come off as being "professional" at times (alot of the time)

After all, I have the horrific things I have lived in my life versus what I know from being in the streets versus what I learned in psych/medical........you'd think I'd be able to help myself, eh?

If I had one wish; it would be to find peace & happiness for the ppl who I see post in these forums; Myself...eventually?
But, it's 2nd nature for me to help others first....that's just the way I am.

ANYWHO, Thanks to you who responded.....your kind words & thoughts will be remembered.......PEACE TO ALL....period

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