Yeah baby, I can bleed far more than you can imagine. At 50 years old (might seem a long way off to you, but life passes quickly), I have lost my wife of 25 years, my 18 year career, my home, my family, been in and out of hospitals including mental wards so many times I've lost count, had countless alcoholic fits and horrendous hallucinations, have the beginnings of cirrhosis of the liver (a terrible way to die), and have to live in utter poverty. And like you, I started out drinking a little wine when I was young, and thought 'so what?' Now I KNOW. This is not a lecture, it's your life to do with what you want. But please believe me, you won't be thinking 'so what' if you make it to anything like my age There are LOTS of things you can do before you risk ending up like me. Just don't drink is the most obvious. It's not a cool thing to do, even among young people nowadays. I live in UK, and there are dozens of completely confidential telephone helplines for young people here, I am sure it's the same in USA where I am guessing you live. They won't judge you. If you don't like one, you can phone another. If you drink, you are far more likely to 'screw something up', and there is nothing uglier than ending up being an alcoholic, desperate to get well. It's a lot prettier asking for help before it takes over your life completely. As well as the alcohol thing, your 'so what?' may mean you are depressed - same thng, lots of helplines. At least try it, huh? Best wishes.