walkswithspiritbear,
Thank you for the hugs, understanding, and support, I really appreciate it. Yes, I am a confused mess at times, though I hide it really well most of the time. If you have any insights, please share, I would love to hear them.

SongBird,
Thank you for your kind support. My husband does know some of it, but not all of it. He knows my brother has problems, with still living there and all. He thinks it is odd and sad, but he doesn't say anything. They actually get along rather well, as my brother is very nice to my husband and they talk about sports, our kids, politics, etc. Not something he is used to from any members of his own family. At times I want to to let it all out and tell him everything, but I am afraid to. I don't want his pity. And since we have an extremely strained relationship with his family, mine is all we have. I am afraid if he knew everything, he would really dislike and lose all respect for my parents. It would definitely change the whole dynamic of our visits with them for sure.

Myzen,
Thank you for your kind words. Yes, I do have my own life, thankfully, but there are still family visits that often leave me depressed. We live far enough away that we don't get together that often, but often enough to see their only grandchildren. And because of this, they stay for hours! It is too far of a drive for a short visit. I just hate how we all ignore the big old elephant in the room, but then again, what can be said about how they live? I just wish I could enjoy my visits with them, but I don't know how to, so I just pretend to, and count the minutes until they leave. I hate feeling that way, and feel guilty about it, too. They are afterall, "nice" to us. But I just try to be nice even though I feel like screaming at them sometimes.