My hoarding became so chronic at one stage that I had to rent out a self storage unit(which I still have to present approx 8 years).My father (who to this day does not acknowledge ocd and depression) came to a conclusion that I move out if I didnt stop filling every space I could occupy in the family home.It became utter clutter and with my late mother who was then diagnosed with advanced dementia ,I had no choice to rent a self storage unit. I eventually moved and lived in my vehicle off/on until I decided to become mums primary carer as I didnt want my mum ending up in hospice care. My parents were really unfit to care for each other. My condition was suprresesed to boiling point were I had suicidal tendencies to a degree were I would physically scar myself in order to detach from my emotional feelings (I have to attribute to some divine intervention of some sort that I didnt carry through) .There have been and still are a lot of complicated dilemmas with my older sibbling and father, regarding my condition(Ignorance somehow preveils).Getting back to my hoarding I would retain anything from books,LP'S, clothing, curio's and bric a brac along with personal billing papers & documents.The bulky material items I have sinced stopped collecting as I eventually took on the wisdom to detach from the material realm.However today, I still collect grocery & shop receipts.I have about 5 shoe boxes full, with every receipt itemised and denoting each week and day of the year.In reality the so called "functioning society" would deem this to be quite disturbing but I somehow have found it to be reassuring as time went by with my superstitions as I feared that someone may want to use me or set me up as a plot to a crime scene, and so the receipts are my allaby's in sense. I would plead to anybody who may also experience this simmilar saga for their feedback. Thanking you all kindly.
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