Hi Curtis don't deespair mate, these are classic OCD symptons.I have so many mine fields in my brain when it comes to Rutts.It becomes that severe that I get so erratic that I would hop in my car multiple and multiple times and drive alone (around and around)to eraticate them but its hard I would get that tired that I will pull up in a vacant shopping carpark in the very early hours of the morning and get bogged down with these explosive rutts, and eventually realise an hour or more has just short changed me. I sound like a hypocrite saying this but treat these rutts as psuedo convictions only, try not fight them as find it only escelates the intensity of anxiety. Just weather that raging storm until passes. Hang in there buddy and post me a reply if you so wish about any Rutss or "convictions".