Haven't seen my counsellor in almost 2 months now.. I was too ill to go last time and just haven't had a chance to arrange it really. I'm going to arrange an appointment this week to see her the week after next. I know I need to see her before Christmas, but I need to continue saving for Germany and Christmas and everything else.

I'm just.. Ugh. Incredibly stressed out right now. Connor just looked over at me, asked if I was ok and I said yeah and he asked if I was sure, so I gave a cheesy grin and said 'yeah, I'm fine'. I'm not though. But this isn't the time or place to talk about it with him. He's in the middle of playing a game, with his Brothers, while I sit here helping others like I normally do to distract myself...