Thank you everyone for your advice and support. It really helped me a lot to see everything I'm putting up with broken down like that Rohag, thank you very much. It makes it much easier to see where I'm going wrong, and where I can make changes. I know these changes won't be easy, but I don't really have a choice in making them. They must be done in order for me to get out of this before I sink even deeper. I just hope I can find the strength from within to do so. Today was a bit easier after reading these replies, sorry for not responding immediately, I actually had some stuff I had to do today that got me out of the house which I think also kinda helped get my mind off stuff. Sadly, once I was back home the empty feeling came back. I think I just need time, patience and strength. All of your replies are greatly appreciated