I wrote this post a bit back but never posted it. So edited it a little and here we go.

I've been on PC for what seems like a while, but I guess, in comparison, not too long. I look back on when I first joined PC and I was a scared, confused person, hiding from a lot of their life, terrified about what was going to happen, alone in many ways. So much, both terrible and good, has happened since then.

Since then I've deleted my account once and changed my username a couple of times. I've had a rough couple of days but I look back to where I was even just half a year ago and I've come a far way. I tend to use PC as a tool to vent a lot of the time so I don't always post about the positives and I don't always see them.

I guess this is just an update on my life. Kate and I separated a couple of months ago but we're still good friends- it was mutual and had to happen. I have a job now, even if it's nothing spectacular. I take my medication, I go to therapy, I talk with my friends. Even if everything can be so awfully frustrating I try to give myself a fair chance. I do my best to stay clean and I do what I can to stay on the right path. I try to heal.

I've never been an optimistic person- I've never really had any reason to be, but I'm trying my best to be what I need to be. Things get very dark and they get very scary but at least I know I'm not going to back down without a fight. Eventually I'll get through to the light.

Posting this is a bit of my trying to reassure myself that I'll be okay one of these days. Thanks for listening and thanks for the friends who have been here for me. Now I'm going to press submit, otherwise I'll spend a couple of hours staring at the edit post screen.