Glad you're trying. Sometimes I feel it's best to distance myself from those who gnaw at me in some way. Then if I focus on doing something good for myself and making myself feel better it counteracts the hurt somewhat.

I relate to what you are going through very much. I got involved in support groups and away from those who were jabbing and nagging at me. When I got away from them I felt much better. I also tried not to keep focusing on them because it would put me in the pits of depression. I mean I'd think about them for awhile and then tell myself to go do something to make me feel worthwhile.

You are a worthwhile person and there is much hope for you! Did you ever hear the saying "God didn't make any junk?" Well, it's true. Don't know if you believe in god. If not then I'll just say that no one is junk, we all are valuable and have something to offer. I know it feels real bad right now but try to believe it can and will get better eventually, ok? I hope you'll keep posting and be a part of the forums here. We need you and want you to be here. CQ

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