Not really sure where to post this. I have BPD so I'm putting it here.

I'm just feeling really off track the past several days. My life isn't getting any better...I'm supposed to see T tonight...don't want to go...I feel I dont' have anything important to say to him. Nothing I say is important.

I'm ready for my marriage to end and get rid of the angry person that I have to live with. My son and I would be so much better off.

I'm trying to make friends (I've always had trouble making and keeping them). What's the use. I always drive them away.

My father has two options, have his leg removed or die. I don't know what to do for him. He was one of the my abusers but he is still my father. I can't live with myslef if I don't find a way to help him. I will be putting my emotions in a wreck, not that they aren't aleady.

My world feels like it's spinning, and I don't feel I have that much to live for.

Tis life I guess. Not really sure where I go from here.