This is exactly what it is!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I know that but it still feels like i am ...our of my manners and that maybe..because in the back of my mind i always have a fear that one day he would tell me he doesn`t want to talk to me any more and that he was doing me a favor tolerating my b.s - - (all the personal things i share with him and all my comments on his thoughts )

I feel inadequate many times or unwanted not only with him...like an unwanted object - in other societies....and its not like they show it clearly but i am afraid i am just something that people want to kick the heck out of their place.