I am really upset right now. After a lot of thinking, I finally decided to send a message to my friend, telling her how upset I am and hurt by how she never talks to me anymore (I think the last time she even called me was over 6 months ago), and how I was really hurt that I would try to call her and message her but she never even took the time to ever reply in all those months. I know she is going through a bit of a rough patch right now, but I am too and couldn't understand why in SIX months she couldn't have taken at least 5 minutes to see how I'm doing or say hi, especially when she knew my aunt was dying and that my mom's kidneys are failing. So, I sent her a message telling her exactly how I feel because I've been hurt by so many people in my life I had just had it and told her exactly how I felt (but also saying that I was sorry she was going through a hard time still). Instead of her replying back or taking the time to call me to talk about it, she gets her boyfriend to send me a nasty horrible message on facebook saying really hateful things that weren't true and making me the bad friend.

Should I have not said anything? I was just tired of always being the one taken advantage of and hurt by her lack of effort to even care about our friendship. Now I am feeling guilty and upset and crying and I don't even feel like I did anything wrong.. I was just saying how I felt, and I made sure to still show my concern for her well being in my message and did not say anything in a way I felt was unappropriate.

So why am I feeling so upset and guilty? I am not used to being assertive or speaking up, I usually end up just letting things go even when I felt I did nothing wrong, but this was really starting to piss me off so I finally spoke up. I guess I'm just not used to speaking my mind, as I have been walked over my whole life and hardly ever speak up for myself.

I just feel really upset by the whole thing.. I don't know if I did the right thing, maybe I just should have kept my mouth shut.