Thank you for that, I needed that perspective. I've pretty much been able to let it just be a thought that passed as quickly as it comes. I've spent the afternoon going over some of my work from the hospital and looking over my relapse prevention page about SI. It did help to read over the negative consequences as well as positive coping responses. I did some journaling and am starting some dialogue journaling with an inside part to try to increase communication and I did remember that today is my brother's birthday; my good, nice brother who was taken away too young (age 29, he'd be 46 today) he was murdered. . .We miss him, a lot.
thanks again for your support and caring.
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