I am so scared and anxious and so many other things right now. I can't sleep anymore either my mind just never stops going and thinking about everything going on right now.

My mom comes home friday or saturday she hasn't decided which day she is coming back yet from her 3 week vacation aka break from reality. I really don't want her coming home at all because things are just going to get so much worse than they are right now. I am so severely stressed out ALL the time and its getting to much to handle anymore. I am so physically and emotionally drained and I just want to be done.

I thought I was always stressed out because of her and yes there are things that she does that stress me out a lot but I bring most of it on myself and her coming home is adding on to my anxiety and stress. I don't even know what I'm going to say to her because I honestly don't want her home things are working so well with her gone and having it be me and my siblings and my dad.

I can't do this and I'm scared for her to come home because there are things we HAVE to talk about before I have a mental breakdown. Some of things that need to be said are me telling her I need to go see the therapist I've been emailing and calling a few times. I am going down such a bad road right now and I don't know who I am or what I am ment to do in this world.

I just don't know what to do....
I'm scared, stressed, anxious, mad, hurt, upset, and never happy so I thought writing her would be a good start.
Lots of Love
~Morgan~