I feel so lonely and frustrated right now. The wall of isolation that I've built around myself as a form of protection now is cutting me off of the human contact that I really need now. It makes me SO sad and unhappy. My fear keeps me in this lonely room I've built. I'm so tired of it.
Yes, I'm making attempts to get out of this situation and I do have some friends but still I doesn't seem like enough. Maybe in part it's because I'm on disability and don't have any real outlets because I have no job. I'm thinking I need to volunteer somewhere but so far I haven't much luck there. The places I want to volunteer at haven't worked out after repeated calls. So I feel really frustrated there.
Another thing I feel is sadness over all of this. I am really tired and yet I feel I must carry on even though I don't really want to right now.