Great... a spiritual man would enlighten you more about it and what you are experiencing cannot be denied or ignored.

I would mention a Chinese author, Chaung Tzu, who one day slept as per routine, and then dreamed that he was a butterfly. When he woke up, he was so much stirred by the vision that he spent rest of his life thinking whether he is a man dreaming to be butterfly or a butterfly draming to be a man.

I do not have much advice, only these words to share:
Dream lofty dreams;
And as you dream,
So shall you become!

Regards
ZILCH HOUR