There's not much I can add to the great posts already left by others except that I understand and struggle every day with the same thoughts and seemingly always hitting a brick wall way of being. Were it not for my wife and new baby I doubt I'd even be around anymore. But I am and every time I see either of them smile or hear my son laugh with his 2 upper and 2 lower tiny teeth, it makes me realize why I struggle with this blasted depression every single day...I don't want to not see them anymore. I still think they'd might do better off without me, with someone else who's in a more upbeat mood and makes more $$ than I do but I'm still here because I don't want to part from them and I know they'd feel some pain if I "left."

I wish you the best and know you're not alone.

Chris