Actually she does know all that my partner and I are doing because we're helping on a project she is thoroughly involved in. And I didn't truelly know whether I was going to hate her then, but that is what it felt like. Now I've been through 2 more meetings with her, and a lab meeting, and all she does is make me feel worse. She is also starting to annoy my partner, so at least I know I'm not the only one. She just doesn't respond as dramatically as I do. I know that I overreact a lot, but I'm getting a lot better. I've managed to talk myself down enough to not have a panic attack and to not throw up as a reaction to her. I am making progress, but I can't help these feelings that keep building up.
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God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.
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