I definitely will let you all know. I see you (just a general you) all getting well, or at least better and I feel I'm at the whims of my illness. I know that's not entirely true, but it's somewhat true. There are things I can control though and I need help with building my abilities in those areas. I lost a lot of the ability to be emotionally intimate with people during my childhood, but when I am in the depressive episodes of my illness I need that intimacy for my own survival. I get it to some extent from my parents, but even with them I find it hard to reach out. I also need to take better care of myself. I often only eat one meal a day, and not because of an eating disorder but simply because I think it's too much work. I also need to exercise and regulate my sleep. I guess there is a lot to work on.