Hi again all. So i made to my appointment! I took with me a copy of a thread i posted it the borderline personality disorder forum which i adjusted to make a little more sense an i gave it to the doc an he say's i have a mood disorder. He mentioned Bipolar but said he couldn't be certain at this1 i have to fill in a mood diary an take it with me in 2 weeks. He has also prescribed mood stabilisers which i'll prob have to stay on for a while if they help. But we'll have to see how things go. Thank you all again for your help an advice an all your kind words an thoughts. I would not have gotten thru this last week without you all! Thanks again an hugs to you all i hope you are all well!