(((((Locust))))
It is the depression talking...

And yes, depression IS mental illness..

Which is a disease like any other..if you are diabetic, you take your insulin...if you have cancer you go to chemotherapy...YOUR MENTAL ILLNESS/DEPRESSION is no different..

Yes you have to think more positively yet that comes down the road..right now I feel if you write more PRACTICAL info we can all attack and give you small pieces of advice to take beginning small steps, which will the help your outlook, I feel

So can you write more about: Did you not finish an incomplete at school? Did you somehow leave a job? It is okay not to volunteer at this time. What is your passion for writing, what kind of writing? And can how can you reignite that passion? You are quite the talented writer I can feel this from your post

Support system? what does your T say? what does your family/friends say?

Perhaps we can be your family at this time. I am behind on my schoolwork also. I am struggling with seeing the better half of things also...

I hug you, I hug you

You are a wonderful person I feel, i can just sense it in my heart of hearts....