((((Briester))))

Thank you my friend for the support and care. It means so much. I am glad the paper is done and finally turned in. My thoughts are still racing though. It really has nothing to do with the paper. It is what is going on for me right now.

I do have time to start organizing but I know me, I will wait. Right now there is so much going on that I am trying to deal with that it is hard to even concentrate on anything else. But I am trying.

I do not have ADD or anything it is just stress. I am not sure I can even be a therapist or that I should even be trying. I do not know if I can do this. And what kind of a therapist could I possibly be.

As far as being like "everyone else" I am not sure I would wish that. For in that we would lose ourself. What is "everyone else"? Normal, I do not know. I know I would not want you to be like "everyone else" for you are unique and special. You bring so much to all of us by who you are. There is no other like you and that is a good thing.

I know I would miss the Briester I have come to know if you were like "everyone else" and if we were not ourself, and everyone was alike, what kind of world would we live in? What kind of support and caring could we bring to one another here on PC?

Briester, I like you just the way you are. I know sometimes things are really hard and we feel like there is no hope, but in that loss we have one another here on PC where others understand--maybe in different degrees and on different levels, but we are all walking this journey to healing together one step at a time.

Sometimes we take it day by day--sometimes we take it minute by minute--and sometimes like now, I am taking it second by second--but in those seconds I know that my PC family is right here walking beside me cheering me on and standing beside me and accept me for me.

So, hold onto yourself. Know we love you for who you are. Thank you again for the support and caring. Sending you gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps