Today makes one month since I left and I can't tell you how different I already am. It's crazy. All of my mental problems have gotten 100% better. I stopped taking my meds and I'm still doing ok! When I got here I was seeing bushes waving at me, street signs turn into people than those people turn into buffalo and get hit by cars, I was seeing deer in the top of the trees, so many things were going on. My alters didn't want to let go, they still tried so hard to come out or at least be on their guard. I ended up moving to South Carilona instead of Florida and am staying with family here.

I got here late Monday night and went to see an old childhood friend. I was in such bad shape, being triggered by so many things that night and the next day. Things were terrible. Than Tuesday night I decided to start taking my life back. I decided to do something that was forbidden when I was with my husband. My aunt and myself went to a bar and my grandmother watched my daughter. I was still in terrible shape. While I was there I couldn't look at anyone. My eyes were directed at my feet or my hands the entire time. Than my aunt and I met some really nice people. We ended up hanging out with them that night for a while at a mutual friends house and the entire time almost I was still doing bad and seeing things. This guy I met, I'll call him Mark, was really nice to me. He kept trying to talk to me and kept trying to get me to look at him but I couldn't.

The next day I talked to him again and saw him that night. We just talked and hung out as a group thing but it was easier to look up. Still not direct eye contact but to look up. Everything I was seeing and hearing went away and I was starting to get my confidence back. Since than I have been seeing him and we spend a lot of time together. I stopped taking my meds and am still doing wonderfully. I'm actually for the first time in my life happy. It's partially because I'm no longer a slave to my husband and the other part is due to the man I just recently met. We agreed not to get too serious too fast and just take things slow. He also knows all about my DID schizo and everything else, and about my past and current situation and is 100% accepting of it all. He treats me so wonderfully and every time I am near him, no matter what difficult situations I am encountering, he has a strange way of relaxing me and making me go back to my happy place.

As for the living situation, it's not good at all. It's better than the last but for the last 3 weeks I have been sleeping in my car. The family I am with now, crazy people. But there are 6 people living in a 3 bedroom and only one has a job. With me and Alyssa that makes 8. No room for me and she sleeps in a crib in the dining room. They are NOT clean at all, and all they every do is yell and complain. I can't wait to get out of here. I just started a job that the guy I'm seeing got for me and am currently looking for a second job.

I need my own place, just me and my daughter. I need to get out of here and as crazy and bad as this place can get it's better than the last place I was so it will do for a temporary situation until I can afford to be on my own. Who knows when that will be though since right now I only have 4$ to my name and my husband refuses to send me money even though he's required to.

Well that's my update on my situation and I hope you're all well. Thanks for all of the support you all have given me!