Negative chatter is devastating. Please consider seeing a different therapist. One who will help you realize how unfairly you view yourself. You care. You have hope. William James reminds us, "The greatest discovery of my generation is that a man can alter his life simply by altering his attitude of mind." Your challenge is to harness the energy you use to denigrate yourself to make a better life. One step at a time. One day at a time. Good luck!