Berries, I am afraid I won't be much help to you. All I can say is that I too have felt rejected and unloved.

Some things I have read about bipolar depression is it may leave the patient even MORE sensitive to rejection than the average depressed patient. Who knows if it is true...

I think you are a good person who is fun to talk with. I remember when I joined PC that I thought you were definitely one of the popular people. Lots of people here love you!