In many ways, you are my inspiration
WOW! Thank you, Blue!

This is very powerful for me. It is old, it is real and it is there. I cannot pretend that I dont feel this way about myself on a very deep level. My life story screams that this is how I feel about myself. It IS time to do this work and I probably want to do it because I have no idea what I am getting into.
When do we ever know what we are getting into?

Dream, I feel so sorry for her, too. It wasnt the way she should have been cared for. She should have been free to not have the pressure to be good or be gone. And she was groomed to be good, so she could take the burden off of everyone else?
She was groomed to be good so she could make others feel better, mainly her mother, yes. And she was groomed to not express her negative feelings, so she didn't, because she wanted her parents to be happy and to love her.

I want to hug her, too. I can SO understand your t!
Do you mean that you can understand why my T wanted to hug me? Because she wanted to hug Little Dreamer?

She is a smart girl who grew up as deserving and lovable as you are despite the abusive treatment.
Thank you - still hard for me to associate the word "abusive" with my childhood, it's kind of a shock every time it happens. Maybe one day...

I hope so, Dream. I can SO see it for you and I can SO see it for Tree. But I am trusting that you to see it for me