Hello & Welcome, Headintheclouds6!

I was going to reply by quoting excerpts from your post, but I found myself selecting everything you wrote. Wow. How well spoken! Clearly, you're in the right place.

Alienation, distraction, consumed by the illness, feelings of failure and being a burden, etc., etc. - you've summarized a whole bunch of the posts in these forums. You're resonating!

Make yourself at home.