I think you have gotten a lot of good advice from the others on this board. I hope things start to turn around for you. If you family is not supportive, maybe you should try to get away from them. It is good that your mom is there for you, but maybe she is bringing you down, too. Have you ever thought of family therapy or therapy with your daughter so the 2 of you can discuss the issues that are there? You say your daughter blames you for her life and is not forgiving you for things you have done. Have you actually asked for her forgiveness?Just remember you have the power to change your actions. Be strong and seek help. Keep us posted on how you are doing.