It's 6 am, and I haven't been to sleep at all--not ideal circumstances for a morning run.
Maybe the college doesn't matter either. Maybe we just think it matters... oh my god, I sound like a complete idiot... maybe I should've majored in philosophy instead of studio art...
It doesn't feel real at all... every breath feels too surreal. It just feels fake. And I feel stupid for buying into this illusion. I feel stupid for feeling stupid about it. And I feel like if I just keep playing along with said illusion, I'm being deceived or tricked in some way... I actually don't know if that made sense. :/