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Originally Posted by dreamseeker9
Those beliefs are deep, and they are painful. It will indeed take a lot of hard to work to change them [...] I often feel like I don't deserve to be loved - I don't even know where that feeling comes from. It's old and it's there, and it's real. [...] you will figure out how these beliefs originated, and you will figure out (with ftt's help) how to change these beliefs. We are all precious, and we all matter... and one day, we will all know that it's true.  |
thank you so much for this.
In last session T told me that she looks forward to meeting with me. I was silent, and she looked me in the eye and said, "you don't believe it, do you."
I said "difficult", but that wasn't really true, I should have just said, "no".
Whenever I hear from T that I will have to learn to re-parent myself, learn to forgive myself, learn to challenge my avoidance, learn to nurture myself, from within I sense that there is such a SILENCE that it's scary. No response. And, not surprisingly, not much change coming from me so far.
I have a feeling that soon T will begin suggesting some concrete changes to make, and yes I can do them, but it will be like teaching a dog to pee on the paper instead of on the carpet - I will just be doing them, not changing from inside.
Scared.......