I have just been diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder. I now have a hard time believing any feelings that I have. I'm married to a wonderful man who supports me 100%. I also have 4 boys, 14, 12, 7 & 13 months. I go from being a recluse in my own home to being so bored I'm crawling out of my own skin. I'm wanting to find friends but then am so insecure I can't. I feel a mess. My parents also live next door to me. Most of the time they are a huge help, but when I'm going through my bored stage and I start leaving the house I feel like I'm being watched, judged, and caged in witch makes me angry and even more out of control. I'm just waiting for the new meds to kick in and fix everything. Is that the way it works or am I wishful thinking?