so, last night was the third night with nightmares

I am keep seeing my dad ( I was always scared of him, he didn't abused me but he was scary authority figure to me)

Last night, I ran into my sister who abused me for I don't know... 20 years???

I saw her and she was walking and holding her daughter's hand.

They were running to take subway or trains. I was going somewhere that I've never been to. I was anxious and rushing cuz I knew that it would take over 1 hour to get to my destiny.

There were a lot of ppl in the station. they all seem to know where they are going to, exactly which train, which way etc...

Looked like I am the only one who doesn't have any clues on which way or which train I should take. because there were so many different ways.

Then I ran into a lady and showing my map and she told me she would help me. Her train was about to leave and I told her to get into the train saying don't worry about me. but the doors were already closed so I was relieved that she can stay and help me. but there was a woman forced to open the subway door and this lady decided to get in to the subway.

I was dissapointed... I was holding my map and feeling very anxious, trying to find some ppl who would help me.

I just decided to take a risk and got on the next subway.
I was talking to some ppl and they told me I was going totally opposite direction.

I got quite scared and thinking worried that if I have to change my subway, I didn't want to end up taking same subway with my evil sister.

Thankfully I didn't run into her but I ended up in the middle of the street with the round about. There were so many cars...there was no way I could cross the street. a lot of drivers didn't fallow the rules and I was overwhelamed...

what is it that I am keep running into my family members who I don't wish to see, I have lots of fears toward them, I am feeling so lost, don't have any clue where to go and end up going to wrong places...

can someone help me with this???