Thank you all for understanding that I needed to take a step back from the forum for a lot of reasons.

I am admittedly still struggling very much. Even though the relationship I am in is over, I just want some how to make peace. But, my ex girl friend ignores me, I passed her and she didn't even acknowledge my existence. If she only knew how I felt inside. I am in sheer agony. Today I am sick to my stomache about the whole ordeal. I am so stressed out and physically ill... feeling my stomache churning away as I type this.

I sent her flowers for her birthday and not even an acknowledgement. Actually, I think she threw them out.

This was a realtionship of over two years. I am devastated by this. If she only knew how much pain I was in at least she would talk to me. I don't see why two adults can not at least be civil to one another. I know I caused her pain and I am dreadfully sorry. But, how can it help her to inflict so much pain on me in return?

At any rate, I am sorry for whining and sorrier yet for not being a full participant on this forum as of late. But, I am in a very bad place and it is really a turning point for me.