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You are an interesting Lady - wonder if your character "ladymacabethadmunsen" is looking for a guy who she wants to be her ideal man to whom she will devote her life while vicariously ambitious she will support his dreams and fantasies ... or she is:
“she is powerful leader of her people” and “a mysterious minds reader” but still “shy” with her fantasizes “fearing rejection” even she has more strength – for them - than a man, like the Shakespeare’s Lady Macbeth showed with what I would call a “vicariously ambition”
I don't know anymore if your made-up story and character is like this: “she is powerful leader of her people” and “a mysterious minds reader” but still “shy” with her fantasizes “fearing rejection” even she has more strength – for them - than a man, like the Shakespeare’s Lady Macbeth showed with what I would call a “vicariously ambition”...
But you had the opportunity to live in reality (you had a phone number and didn't use it even given for that purpose)
I love my friends no matter the gender (“Rejection hurts and i feel ridiculous being the female” – I bet men feel more ridiculous in nowadays culture!) but we do not talk daily. There is a difference between friends - you care for them with what I would call "universal love" - and a partner who involves some more ingredients than the “universal love” as a base for love between partners or other type of relationships that involves other ingredients. But that’s my opinion and people have “love affairs” for so many other different reasons! One reason could be the Lady Macbeth’s one from Shakespeare – I would not consider her a real friend for her husband no matter they were in love!!
Maybe your friend is just a friend that feels "universal love", respectively “friendship” for you! He had his moment to be curious to see more and you weren’t. You can’t ask people and opportunities to be the same when you are ready for what was in the past! But you can still try to see the present, if that is what you want!
You wrote down that you do not want anything else from him “Just to clarify - i am not EXPECTING anything form him! I just don`t want him to have anything negative for me! thats all. I held back many times” Don’t you see smart, subtle lady that somewhere you are serving yourself some self-bias?
Don’t you have friends with whom you don’t talk daily? I think that we have talked here like friends to you! But not daily J
Gab!
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