When I was fifteen I was locked up because of my writing and the illistations, while being locked up I managed to get my hands on a journal and it was there that I poured my darkness, saddly being in lock up is kind of like jail, you know with surprise searchs for contraband, well they found the journal I got into a lot of trouble, ever since then I have not written anything worth while or drawn anything. Im not saying I havent tried, but its not the same. As for looking for a job in the law area, blood spatter, mortision, ect. my parents arent willing to pay for the schooling, they say its too morbid and that it only feeds me darkness. My new T on the other hand thinks it is a good idea. She recently told me of a reasearcher Anderson Raine who has studied criminal in maximum security prisons and law inforcement workers, they have the same profile. She said after talking to me the three times we have talked that she believes I have the same profile, so now Im happy to say she wants to work on getting me to do good with this darkness rather than bad. She gives me little assinments to do when I leave which are helpful. And my parents are supportive, which is nice for a change, thing is I think they are hoping she 'changes' me so that I want to work with kids or something horrid like that. I think they are going to be in for a nice surpise. Thanks for all the suggestions everyone. I think Im on my way to something good.