Sunny - so I must realize that I am basically a liar. Before you jump on me for overreacting I have to say that I did deliberately tell her a lie in that session - now it seems there were really two - which means there are probably tons more. It is too much, I have tried so hard to be truthful at least judging from the pain it seemed I had tried, and now I feel like giving up.

A gut reaction of telling lies is NOT a reason to LOVE oneself. if I could spit, here on PC, I would.