Sorry I'm late to the party, Shangrala. In fact, not only am I late, I have far more questions than answers (nothing unusual there...).
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Originally Posted by Shangrala
Despite my conscious efforts, I am struggling to NOT make more mistakes, but they just....."happen".
I'm too old for this. I should know better. Yet, time and again.....ehhh!
And silently in my head, way deep down, I can hear mom telling me how she knew I'd fail, again.
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Parents don't really go away or die, do they? Or, do they?
These "mistakes" - are they really mistakes, or are they only mistakes viewed from one perspective? Have you ever taken one of these "mistakes" and exhaustively tracked back through it to its root cause or causes? Have these "mistakes" ever produced something good contrary to expectations?
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Originally Posted by Shangrala
So, tell me...What IS the point? What's the difference between sever fatigue, anger or depression? More importantly, how can I even tell em all apart?
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Totally lost here. I've never succeeded in teasing apart depression, sleep problems, fatigue, and medication side-effects.
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Originally Posted by Shangrala
I don't lash out. I don't get angry. I don't snap. Yet, I feel this rage within me, that's not only new, but confusing.
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Wild Speculation: Any chance this new, confusing sense of rage is a paradoxical sign of healing or a step toward acceptance???
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Despite my efforts, I just can't seem to succeed.
... My daughter is my reason.
... Point Is?
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What does "success" mean to you? Is your idea of success really yours or an implant from others? Does "success" have anything to do with your daughter-in-herself? Could that be the point?
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Originally Posted by AAAAA
Your daughter is giggling in the next room, where is the failure in that? I dare you to give me an example of a more important job than raising a happy child.
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Hear, hear!
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